19...hmmmm

The walls around me bear, as I sit at my desk drinking my green tea. Looking over the clock I realize the time. 12:02 am; I've been nineteen for two minutes without even noticing. Following my realization my first birthday messages come through the various wires provided by technology. Which is followed by my mother bursting through my door singing Happy Birthday! Embarising  me as I talk on the friend with a close friend, that just did the same seconds before.
 Its like a national anthem for the starting of a new year in my life, fresh start. The soon coming school year makes it feel like that even more. Clean chance to ace the grades, and have a good year. I do hope its a good year, I say thinking to myself as my mother comes to the end of singing and presents me with the first of my gifts.
   A  Hogwarts hat, as well as hair clips are to follow. Labeling me a nerd, with an obsession with my curly and quiet unruly hair. Who can blame me, its a friz in this humidty. Even in the best of days it finds unusally cruel ways to persecute me.
   On this my personal New Year, its no different, as i sit here typing away. Half talking to Dante, and half going through the realization of  the whole birthday thing. As  a whole, it  never seems like such a big deal until I'm right in the middle of it.
    Even as a child I remember thinking the week before, "oh whatever i don't get for my birthday I can get for Christmas. What's a compel of more months for waiting" It wouldn't be till the night before that I would get excited. Now it takes even longer for the actually birthday excitement to hit. Even now as I sit in my pajamas and Hogwarts hat its still slowly creeping on me. 
    19 today, and in two days time I'll be back at school living the year over again. Sad thing is with all the bare walls, right now I'm more excited about school starting.  In the morning I won't feel that way, but right now its all I think as I head for the comfort of my bed taking off my hat. Hmmmm..sleep