Wanting to feel on Top of the World

For the Stalker

Your world is a small bubble in the universe as a whole, but when it comes all crashing down it can feel like the universe is against you. Soon you heart is crushing, and your heart is spining. You are lost and confused. As you start to think back you start to regret everything you have ever done, romantically. You question every move, every thought, every feeling. I f you did something different would things be better today? Would you be happy with that ending instead of this?
I wonder constantly, even when i say that i don't regret. Or atleast I try not to regret. But when your small bubble of a world seems so twisted and shifting to fast for you to adapt you start to wonder.
Now with college starting, me moving out and my boyfriend dumping me I wonder. I wonder if I will ever be romantically happy. FOr a breif time I thought it was possible, but then it drifts away. it always seems like this love thing is going down a path that i can't fallow as i down in almost possiblilty.
as my mom says though..i'm young yet. I'm too young. ...But really am i too young to feel and know how i want to feel.
I want to feel on top of the world, and maybe i will someday.