To Do Lists

Today I had to add google calendar and my desktop calendar in aid to my schedule book I carry with me. It was a low point when paper To Do lists and scheduled plans in pen and paper were being lost. My friends forgotten in work that plagues, and numerous appointments forgotten among assignments. I've lost my way in judging what is sane and what isn't, when it comes to my scheduling. 15 minutes is enough time for lunch, and 10 minutes become enough time to walk across a campus 20 minutes long. All to keep it together, for the schedule.

Sitting here writing, I sometimes forget that I'm suppose to be gone already. Rushing off to the next thing that might keep me focused, that might keep me sane. The reasoning I guess for the combination of the calendars here on my desktop and in the world wider web. I'll never be able to forget, no matter the computer I'm at. For survival, if I'm not in my room, I'll log onto google before anything else. Keep the anxiety at bay. 

I'll still use my peaceful, but urgent green post-it notes. There is something that hangs in the balance by listing the things that need be done. Its paper I can hold and cross off. Its also determination to not loose this one piece of paper, and by doing so holding my day together. 

It's just one piece, one part.